Life ahead

I'm blogging about this because I want to go back again about this issue when time comes and I want to reflect on the decisions I made. It so hard for me to decide on such matters especially when family concerns are in hot spot,..so hopefully i will be blogging again about the end results very soon. Mom and dad talked to me about the issue on supporting papers for our immigrant petition, they were asking me to decide on the matter since I have to be doing it anyway, It would mean that I have to choose for myself which way I wanna go (that simple?) Cant I have everybody's opinion first? deciding means I have to choose Aunt ????  to be my sponsor and i would automatically giving away myself and live with her in San Francisco. It would also mean being away from dad, mom and my sisters. It doesnt matter much anyway, as long as I can have a stable job and a nice one to support my travels and visit them every now and then. But maybe Auntie would allow me to stay for a while in San diego and decide later if I want to leave them and live in san francisco. what I really want is for the good welfare of everyone, whats important is we each have our job and a place for shelter, this can be possible I know I have great expectations of my life ahead and its gonna be real great, I'm expecting to attract  an abundance of peace, joy, happiness, love, love love love and all the grateful things that we have to be thankful for.

memory full

Life threatening ang mga negative vibes na sumisiksik sa utak ko nitong mga nakaraang araw, minsan nakaka-irita na talaga, yung tipong kumukulo ang dugo ko kasi parang virus na bigla na lang nagpo- pop-up sa screen ng computer. Pilit ko itong nilalabanan at winawaglit sa aking mala-birhen na utak, kung pwede ko lang inumin yung zonrox na may bleach para tuluyan na itong lumisan sa aking tahimik at noise free na utak. Sana pwede buksan gaya ng computer at i-program, actually pwede naman talaga i-program ang ating mga utak, masyado nga lang itong madugo kung tutuusin, mahirap at minsan hindi talaga maiwasan na babalik-balikan mo ang past. sabi sa libro na nabasa ko, sikapin daw na mag-isip ng mga magagandang bagay na gustong mangyari sa buhay mo, at ito ay hindi imposibleng magkakatotoo at tunay na mangyayari. Subukan ko nga mag-isip na madami akong pera hehehe,…yayaman ako for sure. Sa pagbisita ko sa mga blog na sumisilaw sa aking kaisipan, sadya naman talagang kakaiba ang pinoy, napaka-talino at world class talaga, madami kang matututunan kung tungkol sa buhay buhay lang naman ang usapin, at sa dami ng nabibisita ko, (at hindi pa natatapos na nababasa) sa totoo lang, hindi ko na mawari kung ilang gigabyte ang pwede ma-accommodate ng ating utak, to the point na mag remind syo na (memory full) kaya ito ang nangyayari sa akin, ayaw ko naman kasing uminom ng zonrox para mawala ang mga negative na anik anik (hehehe) ewan ko halos lahat ng blog na nadadaanan ko nababasa ko yan) kaya ang nangyayari po ay napapa-blog hop na rin ako at nagblo-blog reading,..nawala nga yung mga negative anik-anik pero nag-uumapaw naman ang USB ng aking utak…memory full ika nga

hello world

With all that’s happening in our lives, sometimes we need to reflect & think. We are very lucky because words are expressed in different ways, sounds, music, art, movies or even lifetime situations that we never know is reaching to us unconsciously... what matters most is how we digest those words & events in order for us to rectify & make a change in our life

Traffic crawls, cell phone callsTalk radio screams at meThrough my tinted window I seeA little girl, rust red minivanShe's got chocolate on her faceGot little hands, and she waves at meYeah, she smiles at me

Hello worldHow've you been?Good to see you, my old friendSometimes I feel cold as steelBroken like I'm never gonna healI see a light, a little hopeIn a little girlHello world

Every day I drive byA little white churchIt's got these little white crossesLike angels in the yardMaybe I should stop on inSay a prayerMaybe talk to GodLike he is thereOh I know he is thereYeah, I know He's there

Hello worldHow've you been?Good to see you, my old friendSometimes I feel as cold as steelAnd broken like I'm never going to healI see a lightA little grace, a little faith unfurledHello world

Sometimes I forget what living's forAnd I hear my life through my front doorAnd I'll be thereOh I'm home againI see my wife, my little boy, little girlHello worldHello world

All the empty disappearsI remember why I'm hereJust surrender and believeI fall down on my kneesOh hello worldHello world Hello world

love affair

Here is a rundown of a movie which I love to watch occasionally,

Hoping, that as time is ticking he would find the path that would lead him home…& realize that a part of him is longing to be in harmony with love.

I remember a very romantic story of two strangers who met on a plane, the woman was engaged to be married, the man was also seeing someone, they met, they talked & it so happened that a storm was on their way, this was the story line and it was more favorable to get to know each other deeply. Having been stranded on a familiar place, the man invited the lady to go visit someone very dear to his heart. (would a man do this if he only met you for a day, or few hours perhaps?) The man introduced him as a fiancée (which is not). The old lady which they visited happens to adore the man (she is the grandmother by the way)

Here is the part of the story which I really loved (& loved watching). The grandmother was playing the piano, & the lady was humming along with eyes closed… & guess what? The man was admiringly looking at her ( oh!....how I love this scene…silly me) You know why I love it? It’s the hum, its beautiful, makes you fall in love over & over again…I know that you’ve all watched this movie in your lifetime, but let me get on with my version hehehe…

After a few days being stranded together, they parted ways with a promise of a date in the empire state building. Life goes on, & here comes the unforgettable day of their life…The man was there, but the lady wasn’t…

To conclude with the story, they ended up together after a few years had gone by. HOW? They accidentally met again one christmas evening, when the man visited her at home just for old times’ sake, but it got farther than that when the man saw “the painting” (he recognized the painting which he made & meant to give her on their date). In some way that painting which he painted led him to her, he remembered that he sold that painting to a restaurant owner,after he waited in the rain with no sign of the lady & with deep frustrations. Not that she didn’t come, but because she couldn’t make it, she met an accident (on that same day that they were to meet in the empire state building) which took both her legs, & for some reason, she couldn’t walk for the rest of her life. The man wasn’t aware why she didn’t come. Why she couldn’t come…only now he could see why…

Its an old story & its been told & written many times…By the way, this movie is entitled “LOVE AFFAIR” with Annette Bening & Warren Beatty as stars… A part of me relates to it…

MI 4 Ghost Protocol

Hayskul pa lang ako, patay na patay na ako sa tom cruise na ito. Maalala ko pa usong uso nung estudyante kami na pagkatapos ng exams namin, (prelims,midterm,semi-finals at finals) buhay na buhay yung mga video stores na malapit sa school namin paano ba naman kasi buong barkada gumagala at mag hire ng betamax at bala para manuod ng mga bagong pelikula (oo nung kapanahunan ko betamax pa kami nakakapanuod at sikat ka na nun pag ganun ang tambay at hang out ng barkada) Nung mga panahon na yun, nahumaling ako sa idol ko na ito at madalas maiinis ang barkada kasi ipagpipilitan ko na mag hire ng mga bala at pelikula nya hahaha... Naalala ko pa nga ang ibang barkada na masama ang loob at walang magawa kundi manuod na lamang (panu kasi divided equally ang bayad sa video store) sino ba naman ang matutuwang manuod ng isang veteran at baldado pa,(born on the 4th of july) syempre katatapos lang ng exam at least man lang comedy o love story ang trip ng barkada, halos lahat ng barkada boto naman sa napiling bala hehehe, dahil ako ang pasimuno nasunod na panuorin namin ang pelikula ni idol, Kaya tuwing manunuod ako ng pelikula ng aking idol sumasagi sa isipan ko ang mga experiences ko nung hayskul dahil wala naman talaga ako pinapalampas na pelikula nya, hangang sa akoy kolehiyo at nagka-work at tumanda hehehe paborito ko pa rin sya. hindi naman ako nabigo sa paghanga sa kanya dahil obvious naman ang galing nya sa mga blockbuster movies na mga pinagbibidahan nya . Ang hindi ko lang mawari sa kagwapuhan nya eh kung bakit di nya naipagkalat ang lahi nila ni NICOLE KIDMAN at kay KATIE HOLMES sya nagka-YURI....hehehe ibang usapin na yan...pero heto ang bago nyang pelikula na nasaliksik ko sa youtube, alam ko maraming nag-aabang nito...

An hour ago, a bomb blew up the Kremlin.

The president has initiated a ghost protocol

The entire IMF has been disavowed

Now I've been ordered to take you to Washington when they will hang in the Kremlin bombing and you and your team unless you were to escape after assaulting Brent and me.

But if anyone of your team is caught,

They will be branded terrorists, out to incite global nuclear war

TOM/ETHAN: So what happens now?

Your mission, should you choose to accept it...

GIRL: So what's the play?

TOM/ETHAN: Who are you really? Brent?

BRENT: We all have our secrets. . . ain't we? Ethan?

Okay now. . . remember blue is glue

TOM/ETHAN: And when its red?

DEAD

BRENT: You're not gonna make it!

TOM/ETHAN: You're not helping!

music by: EMINEM feat. PINK : WON'T BACK DOWN

hits the big screen on: December 2011

RN

Half of Our lives is spent in the hospital 5 days a week, 40 hours a month

We’re together with colleagues more than we’re apart

It has become our way of life.

The rule is:

No.1 : Always be awake

No.2 : Do whatever you can to stay alert and alive

No.3 : Don’t make any phonecalls when busy Oh, and yeah,

No.4 : Everything, everything can signal for a code

.There’s another way to survive this scenario

A way no one ever seems to tell you about, one you have to learn about yourself.

No.5 : Its not about the busy days at all

Its about the life you've saved

If you’re smart,

The life you saved could be your own.

did you? or did you not? QUIT

Like I said, I have vitiligo.

I cant think of anything I did that's related to having it, except STRESS

But I can think of a thousand reasons why stress was there,

Life is dull if you are not stressed

We make life hard, on purpose.

There comes a moment when its more than just a game.

We either turn around, quit and walk away or take a step forward

But, the thing is, we are in love with life

I don’t know, maybe I am.

Life is messy

And there are lives that are way too dangerous.

But what I know, the view from the other side is spectacular.

If we are willing to take a chance. . .

gem

Ever since my younger years, until now, You have always been endearing in so many ways, fromthose moments that you took me for a ride in your old rotten bike, and those times that you always bothered to give me my packed lunch to school before going to work and those wee hours of the night that you never fail to check on us before sleeping , all those little worries, I know it so well because its imprinted in my heart, those caring ways and thoughtful cuddly moments that you have always shown, You always make me feel that I'm never alone.

Among my siblings You are always regarded as the tough decision maker, without you, life sucks for me, with your god fearing ways and really really strong faith (stronger than mine) life has been so full of blessings, sometimes I envy you for that faith I have to work more harder for mine as well.

Small but terrible, thats what you are to me, You have been tagged Thumbelina when you were a child, and now I realized that You really are a thumbelina, fearless and flying, Gods must have been working hard when you were born, because your zodiac tells it all, no doubt about it, and without you i can never fly, ...in my life you connect me to the worlds of fun and excitement.

You are my fairy flying fearless Thumbelina.

I never expected that You will be good in your craft, considering that I was always more interested in our chosen field than you are ( and i never thought u would make it to the professional boards hahaha) Now look at you, still the happy go lucky guy that I know, yet more skilled than I am, and perhaps the most sought after, I'm never going to worry if i get sick.

Your thoughtfulness always put you in the hearts of those around you, what more for us who loves you dearly, your kindness and caring thoughts for those in need is exceptional...always the good samaritan. You taught us well and I know that the good things and good deeds you have planted in us will also be passed on to our children and your great grandchildren.

For the past crucial decade of my life, i know you are there, its you who make me smile, and laugh and cry my tears out. if there will ever be an ending to what we have i'm fervently praying that its for a lifetime of happiness, because you are forever imprinted in my heart as I am to you, i love you so much and i always will.

When I'm on the other side of this world my family can always figure out who is who. I love them so much they are my treasures in life.

pintada

Its been ten years that I had this skin condition, how time passes by so quickly…. I don’t know. I’ve written a few lines about this before, (check ME out) if you want to backread. Three years ago, I was struggling real hard and deeply, deeply so down having this ailment, but having it, brings me to a road where empowerment is a daily task to be practiced. Aside from the fact that my vitiligo is healing itself, its been a year that I haven’t noticed any new pigmentation on my body. There was a time that I wake up in the morning and suddenly I would be asking myself if I had this white spot before I slept last night …I don’t know, but it just appeared from out of nowhere. I have white pigmentation around my eyes ( which is now healed, I used to put on layers of make-up everytime I go out) on both hands, on my elbows, on both legs and imagine where else that can be covered. Medical treatments are still undergoing research, special treatments like PUVA and cortisones are so far the latest I know about the treatment for vitiligo. I’ve consulted doctors, dermatologists experts and friends, and I’ve also read articles MICHAEL JACKSON ‘s case(yes, they say he has it too) and testimonies of people like me, and same thing has been said. There is also the story of LEE THOMAS a news anchor from MICHIGAN (which reminds me that I haven’t checked his site and blog for updates). He is coping very well too and a very remarkable man who inspires people with vitiligo. For me, I let my body cure itself, Natural healing and cell regeneration is whats taking control of my vitiligo. I was different three years ago as compared today, body and soul doing wonders. For people who are not informed about this skin condition, they usually take second glances and most of the time ask if its contagious. Im used to it and sometimes I can feel the fear coming out of them “thinking they might get it too”

Life is good I’m pretty as can be...

si MM_ at si AV_

Minsan ang buhay matalinhaga, may mga bagay bagay na mahirap ipaliwanag at intindihin, malalaman lang natin ang kahulugan at saysay pag tayo mismo ang nakaranas nito. Kung may mga istorya na dapat ibahagi, siguro isa itong kwento ni MM_em-em at ni AV_eyy-vee

Si AV_ (eyy-vee) ay isang matalik na kaibigan at si MM_em-em ang kanyang ka textmate. Anim na taon na sila mag katxt, pero di pa sila nagkikita kahit minsan, O di ba? Kaya nyo ba yun?, Anim na taon na din silang away bati, at magkasintahan...Kung iisipin natin, mapapatanong tayo pwede nga ba yun? Oo meron yun, eto na nga at kine- kwento ko eh, nagpa-alam pa ako kay AV_eyy-vee bago ko i-share ito dito sa aking nuk ang kanilang kwento, hindi naman sya nag-dalawang isip na sumang-ayon, sabi nya baka ito daw maging daan para makita na nya si MM_em-em. Madalas sinasabi sa kin ni AV_ eyy-vee napaka tanga daw nya para umasa ng ganito katagal at mag hope na magkikita sila, nangako daw si MM_ em-em na susunduin nya si AV_ eyy-vee sa takdang panahon...Natatakot si eyy-vee kasi baka isa palang masamang tao si MM_ em-em pero naman sa anim na taon na yun hindi pa naman nalagay sa alanganin ang buhay ni AV_eyy-vee.Walang nakaka-alam sa pamilya ni AV_eyy-vee tungkol sa kalbaryo nya ,maliban sa akin na pinagsasabihan nya. Madaming beses na din ipinagdarasal ni eyy-vee ang suliranin nyang ito, at sinasabi sa akin na pakiramdam nya palagi andyan si Lord na gumagawa ng way para magkabati sila sa tuwing nag aaway...sa pag-usad ng blog na ito samahan nyo ako sa kwento ni MM_ em-em at ni AV_eyy-vee.

U-TURN

This blog suffered an unexpected gap for quite sometime, as the blogosphere world may call it "on hiatus".

All because of expected reasons and alibis:

time challenge, being my foremost difficulty,

on & off DSL connection,

too much hiding,

heart affairs,

family, blah blah blah

I could go endless. I've been missing a lot though, especially bloghopping,

so much has to be learned ( how's & why's in blogging)

and so much to be discovered (bloggers old & new).

For those who are just starting to blog, its damn real hard to backread posts,

what more for those who aint know nothin' bout it,

but for someone who appreciates ones' work

and knows a good material which is worth reading

well, it aint matter to click backwards,...right guys?

I'm doing a lot of U-turns lately, and its quite fun,

you get to meet pro -bloggers and instant friends as well.

and I still have to do a lot of smoothing here in my nook (nuk),

hoping to meet bloggers whose page is often visited

and viewed every second of everyday.

(wish I could be part of their blogrolls hahaha..... "taray")